I have begun to understand that we are all “factory set” at different frequencies. It’s the level at which our nerves vibrate and hum, the level at which we radiate our energy.

I’ve been thinking about this as I’ve thought about my inability to find stillness, my inability to “settle,” a characteristic I have had for my entire life. My need for constant motion, constant activity, no moment left unfilled, has been a hallmark of my entire life. I won’t pretend that it didn’t drive my parents crazy. I won’t pretend that it hasn’t been a challenge for other people in my life either.

I’ve spent time seeking that calm that I never have. Even at my moments of peace, I know that the “thrum” of activity is still there, ready to ignite in less than an instant, And what I have come to accept is that this state of being is just the way I am, that it is just me, may even the core definition of me.

It is time, I think, to recalibrate my thinking, to work towards my level of calm and mindful, a level that may not look like someone else’s but works for me. Rather than find myself wanting, I want to accept and embrace, understand and welcome.

Each of us marches to our own drummer, creates our own music with our unique vibrations. There is no standard that we all have to meet. Rather, we have to learn to understand ourselves and make our peace with that. In that way, we will, indeed, fill our full hearts.